So with my impending nuptials and finals for school, you can imagine I have been pretty swamped. It's like I'm a speeding bullet aimed towards this one point in time: the wedding. Everything that happens at the house, almost everything I talk about, everything I think and do are all aimed toward that goal. One of the things I thought as I drove home for probably the last time that I could call it that was how much I wanted to live in each moment and enjoy my last moments as my mom and dad's little girl. But each moment instead focuses on the moment when I become a Mrs., take a new name and find a new home with my husband.
When does this forward living stop? When we are young all we think about is being a "grown-up". We are always asked what we want to be and do. In high school we think about college, in college we think about our career. Right now I move toward my wedding, then people will start asking about kids and then when we do have kids, everybody will want to know what our kids are going to do and then when the kids are gone, when retirement will happen. For a world of trite sayings on cutesy wall plaques stating that life is a journey and to stop and smell the roses and live in the moment, every single person seems to push us forward onto whatever is the next thing. It can be extremely stressful, like when people ask me what I want to do with my degree. I don't know! How am I supposed to know? I majored in a Liberal Arts field! There is NOTHING to do!
This constant living in the future is difficult, taxing and unBiblical. "So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34)
"Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”" (James 4:13-15)
People are predicting Jesus will come back May 21. I don't really think it's very likely. But I don't know what will happen tomorrow, like James says. We are called to live for Christ, one step at a time. So yes, my man and I can talk about baby names and where we would like to live someday and what we want in a house and things like that. But the only real thing worth doing is living for Christ right here and right now. Hopefully I can remember that these next few weeks and the rest of my life. Tomorrow will care for itself, and if it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.
Sarah
